Musings

I pleaded with the Lord earlier this year. I prayed and asked Him, many times, that if World War III is going to start, or if there is going to be a huge earthquake anywhere in the US that will disrupt America for several weeks/months - I asked Him to let us be home when it happens. Home, here in Colorado. I do not want to be half way around the world and unable to come home if 'all hell breaks loose' in the world.

Is that a crazy prayer?

Months ago, actually over a year ago, while we were still in Ukraine, North Korea did something. Can't remember if it was the sinking of the ship or some other threats that they did. Whatever it was, I asked for prayer about the situation during the worship service on Sunday. Again, I don't remember exactly what was said or done, but I got the distinct impression at that time that people thought it was a stupid prayer request. Kind of like, "why bother asking God about that? So-and-so is sick with a cold and we need to pray for THEM, not some far away situation in a foreign country." Now I'll be the first to admit that maybe I read the reaction incorrectly, but I know that my prayer request was barely prayed for during the prayer time. North Korea is so far away, after all, and the illness or broken arm is right here. I felt oh, so sad and more than a little depressed that people had that attitude.

So, here I am tonight. Mel has endured months of my wailing at him that no one cares, no one listens to me about these things, and so forth and so on. I read in tonights' news that Al Qaida is planning attacks in the US and Europe over the holiday season, that North Korea is rattling their nuclear 'swords' even louder. I read that they are expecting a huge solar storm some time in the next 2 years. I read that a huge earthquake in California is overdue. I read about all the snow and ice and cold across the northern hemisphere right now, colder than in several years.

And I wonder - am I right about all this?

So, I keep praying that God will let us be home here in Colorado when what ever is going to happen happens because I think one, or more, of these things really are going to happen. Soon.

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I keep listening to the sermons on the last two chapters of Revelation. I listen again and again because of what I've learned about apostasy. I used to think that there is no way I could go apostate. Now I know better. I've learned things about myself this past summer that I never knew existed in my mind, in making up who I am. I found out that I am much worse than I thought I was (sounds a lot like what I learned in Sonship so many years ago!).

One of the things that Azurdia talks about is that we need to keep our focus on what our real future is. Heaven. Life, eternal life, forever more in the presence of God. Doing what I was created to do. Being who I was created to be. Thinking of these things helps us to no become apostate.

So often my focus is on the world around me and myself and what I want, what I think I need. I long for the time when my focus will be on God at all times, that I will no longer be tempted, that I will no longer struggle with my sin. I look forward to, and long for, heaven more and more each day.